It's Suv!

I don't want a b****day, I am my own mistake, The world is a malaise Pretense is worship, Loyalty is godly Rule breaking is deadly, Malady deep within, I am fine, I am not I parrot what others want When inside disappears Confused from within Small steady steps Never made progress Have an exam tomorrow Here I am crying Ranting like a kid Ungrateful, spoilt Is there anything new? Just same repeat stuff I feel daily

 Loving me was an error, You found the terror, Lies that she spins herself in, Trust what a misery, You claim it's there when it isn't, Orthodoxy, semi orthodoxy I need to be grateful But I am a spoilt brat Walk at 12am shampooed hair is sin My friends don't remember what it's today Wanted to cry out to music, sitting in new acads alone Parents video call, I look like a mess Why loose hair, why walk at 12am You doing shady stuff when it's not Them disappointed, a day in year simply ruined No one cares unless you break rules Not of morality, or legality You are the shame, trust revoked forever 40 minute lecture I swear I call another to rant They call me again and are like, Why is your phone engaged again? Not their idea of perfect, ideal Their thoughts of misery doom I am Leave a message it doesn't matter You from that school yet how Did you end up this way Why are you not the same as before Walks late night a crime Whips on my heart Cries in the dark Fault of e...

Cross my hearts Kill my soul Don't let others know what's above Twirl around moustache gone What's left inside you Hair you say hate vomit Break the dance before it lasts Curse the words omen about Share the death while it's wrong climbing stairs over ladders,  wish you didn't pull over,  hands on decks don't matter hanging on by a thread,  wish you pulled over,  decks on hand don't matter climbing stairs on the ladders,  wish you didn't matter,  cards don't pander Trust doesnt matter, dostoevsky will linger, paranoia eater, bloody drinker, lemon burning wounds, who will ever see, misty mountains and it's away, World will just forbade

 Am I soo fake When the world soo real Tipping about changing my days Tardiness murky grades in it about An image I hold onto no longer does Esteem pointless when you got none Got a guy who says my face is like goddess Me be like that's such a joke I spend the day and night Picking up my flaws Spoilt the only thing Where a guy was truly into me Screw my fears and insecurities, Made him block me Coz I'm such a red flag I say that I am one, Cactus who hurts those who come near Seeking the warmth of fire and fearing the flame Double faced bitch I am hehe hoho Oh oh oh no Look at the vultures surrounding my lord Each tasting a piece of my own Laid down and bare, nothing covers me Movement up rare, parts of me amiss

 Barely a human You think you would know Claiming outside I don't hurt others When the world turns, I go on a rampage Stab, nick, punch, hurt whats new from my side Just stories and guys dated I say the ending will change When it never does Always my fault letting thoughts win I just sing a melody As it ends in debauchery Merrily merrily I fall for one And end it just because I fault Fumble hard and do it again The world got no time to help Your mistakes you say you learn When it happens again, revert back Lessons lessons what's the point If you can't remember them